Well this is the first of many , and here is how’s gonna go down, i dont haveany fallowers but this place has always been there as a way to express myself so im kind of tired, yeah i know ! Im using the most cliche line of all but lets face it no body follow me soo ueah this is my space right now place wher i can say or do anything without harm to any body and really it feels soooo good right now that i can almost cry!
Im rambling and well i dont care right now cause im going to start posting here!
English`s not my first language so bare with me for the grammar errors gonna try my best to do it as clear as possible .
So i never ever had have control in my life. I always end up pleasing others and the funniest part is that even then according to my family i never get anything wright so im gonna get my control back; necause maybe i cant control my life but i will for sure control my way to leave thia world.
So maybe some day someone can lean from mistakes and dont wait to long to gain back the control of their lifes , and dont wait till desperation and end it like me.
To me it does not get better , im happy that for some people it does really but i dont believe that it matters to me anymore so im setting everyhing up to give up but the way i want to . So till next time ,believw m theres gonna be a next time im going to choose my dead , how i want it, whent i want it. And noooo im not some psycho planing on kill people i dont believe im that and im really a nice person that just got tired of fighting with no results. Im tired and thats hybow it all start